pomengranate

yesterday i cut my very first pomengranate.

i've eaten this delight before but cutting it myself is another story.

from this experience, i've decided that the pomengranate is a very sensual fruit

This red circular root-like fruit, I sliced once to reveal a juicy blood red color. As you crack the pieces you find layers and layers of bright ruby red pomengranate seeds. The red juice drips out staining your cutting board, staining your hands, staining your clothes as you peel and cut, peel and cut. The red seeds seem like tiny beating droplets as you crack the paper-like layer that reveals this gorgeous color, nature's beauty.

Sparkling ruby red seeds encased in thin paper encased in strong orb-like fruit.

Cutting a pomegranate actually makes me horny.

Also hungry.

tuesday

today:
non fat yogurt, blueberries, almonds
salad of mixed greens, baby tomatoes, cucumbers, chick peas, avocado, crunched up tortilla chips, squeeze of lime, bit of lime-cilantro dressing - YUM.
1 tall non fat salted caramel hot chocolate - EEK
pita, hummus, tabouli, babaganoush - 5-6 french fries - meh

workout = 2.5 mile walk with 7lb laptop in tow

overall good day with a few pangs of pains and dare i say it, a few flailing butterflies.

today

7-8 -- kickboxing class
then nonfat yogurt with blueberries and almonds
then oatmeal with dried fruit and more almonds (@ starbucks)
full now

rest of the week - salads, oatmeal, yogurt berries.

until thursday.

running 5 miles thursday, friday saturday sunday.

i know i say it a lot - but after this weekend...i've decided - i need to get it back. "it"

first kiss

anytime someone i really like kisses me for the first time, i get knots in my stomach and
the first thing i think about while we're kissing is
"Oh my God, please don't break my heart."

now isn't that delightful?

meal log

tuesday:

blueberries, nonfat yogurt, a sprinkle of granola
5 baby carrots and a non-fat string cheese
1 delicious salted caramel truffle with a 4 oz cup of whole milk drinking chocolate
2 egg whites, 1/2 a 100 calorie pita, a bit of steamed spinach, raw baby tomatoes and red and green pepppers, 3 slices of fresh mozzarella and a bit of pesto
360 calories worth of dark chocolate covered chocolate peels

2.3 mile walk with approx 10 lbs of stuff on my back and shoulders (ouch)

tomorrow - 7 am kickboxing - promise! and no chocolate!!! (hm..i don't promise that part. tee hee)

on sex

i won't be having sex until i'm married.

i'll do everything but the actual deed.

not because of any religious reasons.

not because i'm a prude.

not because i'm 'saving myself'

the truth is, i would gladly give it up if it weren't for my sanity.

i kiss a guy and i get attached. it doesn't work out and i am sad.

i spend 12 months with one, and i become even more attached. we break up, and i am devastated. i go a little crazy, i feel a little schizo.

if i slept with a guy and things didn't work out, i would not be able to function. literally. unfunctionable.

so i don't have sex because i want to save my sanity.

put a ring on it and then i'll rock your world. promise.

what i ate today

plain nonfat yogurt with blueberries and a touch of granola
1 low-fat string cheese
small bowl of raw peppers, cucumbers and carrots with lime and salt and pepper
1 skim milk no whip 10-12 oz. hot chocolate
baked fish, brown rice, steamed broccoli (win!)
1 cookie bigger (FAIL) than my head and 2 cups of green tea (ok)

walked 2 miles with a 7 lb laptop in the morning.

no other real workout all day.

tomorrow's plan: go kickboxing! eat well!