won't delete

Often I delete posts b/c I feel bad about writing them.  I feel bad about the one below.  I won't delete it but i would like to note that I feel bad.

Perhaps it is not desperation, perhaps it is friendship and I can't see it b/c I've been too self-involved and angry at the world to notice that a friend I've known for over a decade needs me for no other reason than to laugh with me for a few hours and to catch up on life.

and that is not unattractive at all.

It's easy to break friendships...very hard to make them.