Wednesday, March 4, 2009

too tough no more

i'm not who i was.

in college i was this girl with a bit of a tom-boy flair - calling guys i liked 'dude' and lightly punching a boy's arm to be flirtatious.

now i'm the cutesy name caller.  recently spouting off terms like 'sweetie', 'love', 'dear', 'sexy', 'babe' in free flowing form - terms i gagged on in college and teased my friends about if i heard leave their lips - these words flow free.

i used to hate the 'oh i'm out with the boy' line girls would use when they had plans with their boyfriend - and now i catch myself using a similar term - 'gonna hang with boy' - feeling that deleting the 'the' makes it less absurd.

i'm the xoxo, smiling giddy, cutesy, hand holding opposite of what i was 4 years ago.

and i LOVE it.  

yay to emotions, exuding them, not being afraid of them, and not even worrying if the person to whom you're showering them onto is scared by them.

free love for all.  passionate love for some.

xoxo...dude. hah!

1 comment:

Lissa said...

For some reason it wasn't cool to be a girl or to act girly in college crushing on guys. But I think we are all at that who cares stage and being girly is fun and flirty and .. well . . . us!! And I love it too. I love that we are naturally nurturing and caring, and if you want to show it - you go RIGHT AHEAD [insert endearing term] hahaha!