i don't know how many times this has been.
i bet you don't know how i feel AT ALL. i wonder if you think about me ever. I wonder - do you dislike me? do you think i dislike you?
i woke up with a horrible stomach-ache and had to hold my stomach tightly with my arms while i bent down - scrounged up into a little ball, hoping the pain would die out. Then a gasp, and an awful cry - and my heart started to beat fast.
i have an issue with my heart - whenever I get too scared or too sad, it beats too hard and starts to hurt really bad. Then I have to stand or lie perfectly straight and try to breath in deeply, but the deeper I breath the sharper the sting, so I end up taking short tiny breaths until the pain subsides. I think it means it's breaking - no one else believes that concept, so I have to go see another doctor this week.
my therapist says i am in a deep mourning.
to which i reply, 'but it's been 3 years'
to which he replies 'it doesn't matter'
that will be $200.00 - healthcare doesn't cover sadness.
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